Aku dalam Sebuah Perang di Cina

02.19
Angka pertama yang kutemui begitu jemariku meraih HP selaku penunjuk waktu.
Heran. Mimpi apa aku barusan? Insting menulisku otomatis terpacu setelah menjelajahi multiply milik Aris El Durra kemarin siang.
Entah aku terbangun gara-gara mimpi atau karena dengungan nyamuk-nyamuk rakus di seantero kamar. Ini belum jatahnya aku bangun. Matapun masih berat sekali dibuka. Belum masuk jam biologisku bangun tidur.
yang jelas, tadi aku seolah sedang berada di sebuah arena perang sebagai penonton tak kasat mata. Seperti bioskop yang luar biasa besar dan nyata. Entah itu siapa, tapi ada aktor/aktris yang familiar. Dan di sana, tersaji adegan-adegan seperti film Cina terjemahan yang bercerita tentang perang. Entahlah.. Apa artinya?
Apa Alloh 'hanya' bermaksud membangunkanku agar belajar segera? Apa ini? Ah, aneh.com.
Lalu parahnya, bukannya langsung berkutat dengan pen dan kertas, atau fotokopian, atau apa, aku malah sibuk bersama para nyamuk, sampai kamarku sepi dari dengungan! Oalahh... Awal hari yang aneh.

Antara Surga dan Neraka: Hatiku

Alloh,
terkadang aku merasa janggaldengan diriku sendiri.

"Di sana, berbagai jenis buah terhidangkan. Pelayan-pelayan muda nan bersih jelita berseliweran. Daging dari berbagai jenis diduguhkan. Berbagai pernak-penik intan pemata terhias menakjubkan. Dipan-dipan indah terpajang.

Kita

saling bercengkerama dengan pasangan dan anak cucu kita..." (Muttaqwiati: Bercinta di Taman Surga)

Manisnya surga tak lantas membuatku tergiur.
Sadisnya neraka tidak juga membuatku fobia.
Kujalani anugerah hidup ini begitu saja. Bukan seolah tanpa makna. Justru hidup ini adalah kesempatan menggali dan menjadi arti. Bagiku, aku hanya berusaha melakukan yang terbaik. Aku ingin menjadi sbaik mungkin.
Tapi kemudian tidak peduli apa yang akan dibalaskan padaku. Kulaksanakan apapun amanah yang kupikul, kukerjakan segala amlan yang aku tahu dan aku mampu, sebaik-baiknya, tanpa menghiraukan apa nanti balasannya.

Benarkah perkara ini di sisimu, Alloh? Baikkah aku?
Atau justru ini adalah pertanda bekunya hatiku. Tak tersentuh oleh sabdamu.. Makhluk yang teramat cuek, tak ambil pusing atas apapun yang mnurutku semata-mata hanya ada alam kewenanganmu. Sikap seperti inikah egois itu?

Ya Alloh, secuil bimbang mengusik serpihan nuraniku.
Aku ingat sepenggal lagu: "Jika surga dan neraka tak pernah ada, masihkah kau sujud kepadanya..."
Salahkah aku?

FLP's event

Adakalanya kita mesti belajar mendekap gelak tawa & duka dengan kadar yang sama mesranya, hingga tiada lagi istilah siklus suka-duka.
Yang ada hanya syukur tiada tara atas segala karuniaNYA..
Marilah kita bersama meringankan duka saudara-saudara kita yg dilanda gempa di Padang, dalam acara 1001 Cinta untuk Sumbar, besok jam 1 siang di Aula FE UNS.
Acara:
Talkshow & dimeriahkan berbagai nasyid.
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Dari : Icha FLP 21.35 20 0kt 09

a VERY big Dream

Alloh,
i
want
to
marry
someone.

please show me your way.

i will be as good as i can
and help me
to make him as good as you want.

Alloh, i'm yours.

telling my friend

he sold his HP for "warung".
uh... a month-lost-contact is only for "warung? i hate it!

he get a new job:
a playstation rental make him worked there.

he get another job. a "Batak" trust him to work in his field.

my friend works for almost all day!
go to field in the morning, just an hour break, go to PS rental, next little break, or without it, work in the field again, then in the night work in the factory.
i dont know how can he face it.
i'm worrying his sholat.
i'm worrying his health,

when will he sleep?
when will he take meals?
when will he sholat?
is he still take a bath every morning&evening?

he still busy too in his bands.

i dont like his choice.
i dont like this.

but i still havent a way to tell him about it.

i still don't understand the true condition.
what's his reason., what he feels,
ah
boy
whatever i think, whatever i feel, whatever i say
i dont understand.

he's a boy!

may 22th he said
"Mi telor. MnumNy sprit cmpur garem.but obat cikunguNy.abiz plsaQ

what is it?

and the day before, he said that he "terkapar sendirian, badan pegel2, ' and bla bla bla

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

then he make me confuse
because he confuse
because he can't make identity card
because he hasn't a letter from kelurahan.
and he left his ijazah.

i said about his brother. but he didn't answer.

it's unusual (what's the better word to say aneh? aneh seaneh-anehnya?)
if i ask that letter to kelurahan santren.
what will people say?
i ' m sure that he also can imagine that.

he also confuse, i know it.

last weekend, he has a project with his friends. recording.
i wanna hear the story
i wanna asking him again about the identity,
but i still cant call him.

he still refuse, i think.

ok, tomorrow will be another day.

oh yeah,
last night i transfer many SMS into some simcards, and put them in my pocket/blanket/picket/uh, i'm forget. i wanna say "dompet". now, my memory is "lumayan longgar". hehehehe

just a little friction

i have constructed my BIG dreams in LMT, an activity organized by LKI FISIP UNS on may 26-27th 09.
i thought i have to share it to my parents.
but,
they don't there when i want they there.

ibu now still at Welahan. she went there at 03.00am and i went home at 03.00pm.
just a little friction.
next weekend, bapak said, i have to come home earlier.
a "pengajian" will be held in our home, so i must help them prepare all things.
but, at that day, bapak will go to Jakarta!

when can we meet?

inside, i cried.

Lajue in Compilation

Some people build a company named Imajiner Production.
One of the department is Magazine, it's called Imajinasi Free Magazine.
They will launch their first edition not far from this time. In this edition, they give a bonus.
The bonus is a Compilation CD!
It will be shared at Jakarta, Bogor, Depok, Tangerang, Bekasi, Bandung, Solo, Yogya, Lampung, and Padang.
It printed 1000 exemplars.
And will be shared FOR FREE.

Imajiner Production 's Operational Manager send me a SMS, tells about it.
Guess what?
yeAh,
Lajue joined it.

Lajue's manager (now) refuse my recommendation.
Mahir said that Lajue not ready yet for joinning this.
Their record is still out of standard,
"Belum pantas", he said in Indonesian.

But, you know what?

I registered them in this compilation.
I sent their songs tittled "Sahabat" and "Langkah Maju" to Imajiner Production 's Operational Manager.
And yesterday, I paid for registration, Rp 200.000,00
using my own money, which I got from my Teacher because I have helped him in a "Penelitian Ilmiah".
Actually, I wanna save them (the money) for someday
I will go to Sumatera.
I wanna meet my best friend there.
Baturaja.

Then,
it has gave me an access to communicate again with my best friend.
We lost contact for about a month.
It make me sad and confuse and panic.
I thought something bad has happened to him.

BUT,
we have talk again
And I understand what was happened.

At last,
The most "..." thing,

he said

"...Hebat nian 'nak satu ini!?..."

He said I'm GREAT!

oH..
Alloh,
THANKS...

You give me a chance to pay my promise,
You give me a way to supporting Lajue better,
and
You still give me bonus
my best friend likes what i did.
And he was so expected.
He appreciated ME very well.

I LOVE IT, ALLOH.
I LOVE YOU!